the wind calmed today. i feel calmer too. i didn't find my glove, but i have another pair, and i thought of all the single gloves i see drifting around the landscape, i think of them mingling and musing on their missing counterparts. you only find other ones, not your one, while someone else finds your one, and thinks, why is it we only lose one glove and are left with one to remind us. the one that's left, or right, seems so useless now, it's the other one we need. how different the feeling of the naked hand from the hand in glove. at lulu's they did not find it and i said i even clipped them together like a conscientious kid. it's this global warming i said. the snowdrops are popping up. nature thinks winter was magically brief and is confused but willing to try. the fog arrived after my last walk and i startled the birds on the fire escape, then i thought of the twin crystal r. and i got and the miniature couch from when r. was a kid so cute and so i thought i would try a picture on the rail balanced in the fog. i was saying how i felt soul tired and r. reminded me as i need reminding that you can't carry the weight of the world and walk lightly on this earth. and walking lightly lightens the world a little i think.