i feel insane again. how do i get sane again. say how can this be happening. running into the same wall, get up, shake it off, say how lucky, what was that, what happened, a slight concussion perhaps, a little daze, hit the wall again. why, a while, a while ago, i thought i was sane. was it just pretend. is this. there is no telling. tell it, tell it. what an awful thing to feel insane. i can't hear what it is you're saying. i can only hear the wind trying to get in, get in, the crying, senseless, my stomach knotting, knotting wind, i only feel the cold pitiless wind. my mind in my stomach, cold knotting wind.