i feel? it feels? so strange today. is it going to be strange forever? do we adjust to information wars and entropy? just do what you have to do, but what is it we have to do, we have to do something, but what? what is possible, or what is necessary, what can we do now? it feels like we're just doing the same old thing, and everything alive is dying. i'm soul tired today. i don't think i can finish musil. i need to read something written today. i need help making sense of the world, though maybe the ancients had as much to say as anyone alive today.