i didn't ask, i asked as i was doing, i asked while interacting, talking, i never thought i was good with people, i think i'm less receded now, i think my shyness engages, sometimes, i don't want to take their picture, i want to exchange, what is it i have to give, wanting is in a way giving, yes? i remember i was tired of getting in the way, i wanted to get out of the way, i wanted to get my own way, i wanted to get out of my own way. what if i said all that in the park, without words. i can almost hear what sam would say.