it's a sad day actually. there's a lot of death with the jingles. people feel sad alone or in a jovial gathering. lots of people die around xmas. people feel bad for feeling sad when sad is a natural response to the situation we're in. it grows more protracted in the unraveling. it was all a tight ball of yarn before. i think we're going to watch rear window tonight. i'm glad for sarah that she doesn't have to feel sad or bad this season.