i wish i knew what he sees now. catherine said we project a lot of our concerns on animals, that they don't get anxious about losing sight. wouldn't anyone be scared to lose their eyes?
i want to know that what is happening is natural, not caused by meds, not artificially sudden, and not frightening, but i don't know. i know his loss makes me anxious, and i don't want to project my anxieties on him, but i suppose that has been the case all along, my anxieties were coming out all along, all his life, and he helped me deal with them. if he is anxious i don't want to make him more so, i want to say it's ok, mister, you have me, i'll watch out for you. but i'm afraid of not having him watching out for me.