i kept pressing the snooze button. depressed. i have to return him today. mad about the tissue last night. the tissue wasn't the issue. sometimes i get mad because i'm sad, sad because i'm powerless. to allay that feeling. we are all controlled by economic power. we exist in a system we didn't choose. not a system of nature wherein we might find our place. a system overriding nature where we have to fight to establish what in nature would be natural right. ok i dismissed my alarm. the dog awaits. the dog represents, what, conditioned freedom? freedom with conditions. under control in a system out of control. under the law of the lawless, governed. mister. i'll miss him snoozing next to me. i keep thinking, the last time. in the time of ending, the endless beginning.