my right foot gets worse. i wake up from a walldryl sleep, midnight, headachey, my foot's swollen and cracked open, pain shoots up through me when i stand. i'm afraid i won't be able to walk. something dreadful is happening to me. i don't have any health care, for years now, i've been reliant on my own health, i'm getting older and i think i will fall apart. in this shape there is no way i can do five walks a day. i'm terrified. ill prepared for illness, ill prepared for life. 12:25. good night, i'm sorry for the self pity, sorry for the sorry post.