i be in trouble. my feet are worse. something new and dreadful is afoot with me. r. told me about her friend's son who had troubled skin and scratched and scratched and it wouldn't heal and when she looked it was a crater and he had this awful flesh eating bacteria called mrsa and it took years to get healed. idle know why she mentioned this but now i wonder what cousin of mrsa i might have. my body seems alien. it used to heal. what is happening to my skin? what if my feet disintegrate? my whole life depends on walking. without feet, i'm done. and what if it comes from the water? oh god, i can't walk or swim? i be fucked.