the light was serene this morning, and there were many people walking and i've noted before when there is a certain energy and light coming from the lake people seem to feel it and want to be there in it, and there were many dogs in the circle and all playing so calmly and with language between the dogs flowing and between the people and the words were just sounds we were just being there together interested. 
one of the dogs kept looking like me to see what the po-po might do but calmly and the po-po and k. were intrusions but also part of the whole and highlighted the rightness of our interested gathering and the keening of our instincts. 
i note how i'm drawn to different thinking, feeling my way, and sometimes that drawing leads me to grandiosity or insanity and i feel the instinct bolt awake in the back of my head and my senses bristle. k. is part of that dynamic and at times i pull away and at times i'm drawn and it's a kind of dance though an awkward one. i think everything that happens now is feeding into awareness and instinct and becoming attention. i don't have that stultifying fear of the insane i used to have. i think the whole human world is insane and it's within this world we have to awaken. so i'm thankful to k. and i hope he works it out with his old lady.