yeah. it feels like nothing can be done so why try. because we are here. should we just lay down and die. 
i got excited if a little skeptically when kumar said something was happening here, smart people of conscience were arriving, looking for a place to meet and bring the convened light on. my skeptic thought, on to what? loaves and fishes, another new utopia to perish in the wasteland? but no, i would have suspended my disbelief, but then he disappeared, and was put out of his apartment, and will not answer his device, and not that i held out my hope to be dashed, i did that so many times, it's in the abstract now, it really is now all passing show. we are the witnesses with bleary eyes of extinction.