i cancelled walks today because riding hom from the library i was more afraid than i've ever been of frostbite. my fingers and toes had hardened past circulation. and the weather said colder today. it wasn't. i guess i need the downtime. watched the entire american horror show:the asylum. disturbing downtime. thinking how we need monsters. in this they're all human, which is much more disturbing than the fake disturbance of fake monsters. we cant process human evil so we make monster representatives which miss the point. unresolved we are. i put on my dad's big red coat for the first time and find dog treats in the pockets. my heart swells like a bog. then i try to load fiftyseven images and get the spinning wheel of death and start all over again.

i know what surprise means, but what's god?

some people think i'm dumb, copp, and careless.

but copp knows i'm neither dumb nor careless so im not going to worry about people who are benighted and confused.

our victims come here seeking asylum from the predations of the american empire and find one big asylum. note, this has nothing to do with fenway.

people are evil copp but they don't realize it, they think other people are evil.

racecar

yeah somebody thinks i'm stupid copp, but what can you do, huh? you just have to buck up, it's ruthless set-up.

re-ordering. then there was you. god always surprises me.

you know, god as in the unspeakable beyond the limits of language. oh, that god.

lucky fen, you don't have to know evil to know good.