are we necessary to existence? it's kind of sad we have to ask. i can say pretty confidently olive doesn't have to ask, but i don't know where the confidence comes from. walking with adam yesterday i thought i felt more confident in myself than ever, more at home in the world, though also quite alienated by what's going on, and i said i felt like i was here to be a, and paused, and adam said, witness? and i said yeah, i was going to say that but it sounded in my head like it might sound affected. i know for a fact olive is necessary to our existence up here on the 15th floor.