i saw a text, tony didn't know who mom was. i don't know if he thought she was granny weezie or a stranger. we went in the secret garden to see a hawk but did not see. and to talk to mom. she said they're falling apart. then i see another mulberry tree killed and tossed aside, and i think maybe that's a prelude to the destruction of our secret garden. we knew it wouldn't last, but jeezus, will there be any secret gardens left? i heard the fear in mom's voice. i have to say it goes back many years, the fear, and yet it's near the end. and yet i feel like in general it's a kind of ending in time, and we're all in it even if we may not be near dying.