my head is stuffy and the wind is cold. the country is perilous. how do we act in the perilous country. be patient. get up. let go. remember the  little things. smoke is coming out of the top of buildings. somebody is sleeping on the exhaust vent in the ground. i don't want to get up. the country is perilous. have to be patient. have to do with little. little things. have to do without some things. have to get up. i can't stay in bed. things to do. little things. get up, let go. think of things that held us down before. let them go. get up.