i go back to solastalgia for a definition of a feeling that resists 

definition.

 

Glenn Albrecht says,

I describe solastalgia as the pain or sickness caused by the ongoing loss

of solace and the sense of desolation connected to the present state of 

one's home and territory. 

It is the ‘lived experience’ of negative environmental change 

manifest as an attack on one's sense of place. 

It is characteristically a chronic condition tied to the gradual erosion

of the sense of belonging (identity) to a particular place and a feeling

of distress (psychological desolation) about its transformation (loss of

wellbeing). 

In direct contrast to the dislocated spatial and temporal

dimensions of nostalgia, it is the homesickness you have 

when you are still located within your home environment.