i finished in memory of memory, it's funny she started it at 10 years old and decades later voila but it's all lacunae and mystery and speculation. it's a relief to put it to rest. though i did like it. some of it.

all that blather about change after george floyd and breonna taylor and then 1500 more later. memory is fucking heavy. can't put it down. but you have to. but you can't. and it's heavy forgetting too, i think.

i don't want to think about it. it's all going the way of all things, something dying for something to be born, what?