lulu cools her belly on the stone beach by la rabida. i was just going to say the children's hospital because the name sticks in my head like rabid. in spanish it means angry but i guess the idea was after a friary where the s.f.columbus lived before he set out marauding the planet. anyway the rock is slimy and a dog was coming and i slipped and hurt my awkward right second toe and never got to swim and walked home hobbled, hurt, anguished. it could have been worse i could have cracked my head like a bloody melon. i was the only white dude and i thought shouldn't be here, and i'm grateful no one hated on me. i just wanted to swim freely without being confronted by the city on the empty sand beach. it's so stupid, the only time we could go there is when it's closed and it's closed with guards sitting around waiting to kick you off when the danger is elsewhere, in the reopening business. whatever, the summer's going to suck eggs and then it will be over and the covidian plague will surge and then winter. i wonder what my nonexistence would be like.