watching the trials of gabriel fernandez i'm getting really agitated. i was agitated because i couldn't stretch out, the bed was bare, waiting for the laundry, and that combined with the horror of what this boy gabriel went through. why do i watch? what does knowing about systemic evil do for me? it just depletes and agitates me, when i was already stiff and tired and should have stayed quietly reading about emily dickinson, though there was a lot of grief and death in her life too, but there was poetry in the end. in the end gabriel is just lost in the system, terrorized, beaten, dead. anyway i want to apologize to r. until then, d. ok i pologized. just one more episode and i see no evil.