the rain makes a lot of people sniffle, and every sneeze is regarded like the grim reaper. i thought today i'm ok right, if i get it it'll be a mid case, i'll recover. i know people in their 80's who go around helping people and stuff and they're ok. but everyone is either grim or sanguine, and no one risks a smile for a stranger, it seems. i tell you it's exhausting. i've fantasized about escaping trumpamerica and thought fuck, where would i go, and now trumpvirus is worldwide, 165 countries are infected by the trumpvirus. i keep going to the statistics wondering when i'll show up. it's exhausting.