You could feel uneasy and conflicted today as if you are being pulled in two different directions. 
You might long for a brighter future, but at the same time, you could be struggling with letting go of past habits. 
The underlying emotion that could be causing these feelings is uncertainty. 
Perhaps you harbor feelings of fear about how your actions today will affect your future, or you might be unclear about the changes you truly want to make. 
If you set aside some time to gain a greater sense of clarity about what you want your life to be, you will be able to see your situation more clearly and make definite decisions. 
Reviewing your options and the potential outcome of each should give you clues about the right direction to take. 

om

it could be a beautiful continuation. there's a dalmation that needs walking. i'm always pulled in two directions or more, maybe like a hub of a wheel i'm pulled in all directions, bespoke and rolling. i have a rather comfortable minimal home and dog life now and i need to regard my need for balance foremost, for this is a precarious time on earth. how to walk lightly with respect to limits and purpose. you and i could each together make a beautiful continuation today regardless of locality, right where we are.

om d