nothing is sure, there is no sure thing. 

i only heard the voice message of chatterjee, then r. called back and never got a reply. he sounded good though. i hope he's good to mister. when something happens like this i know he could die. i took pictures this morning thinking they may be the last. we just don't know anything. there's no sure thing.

r. asks why i wear the cross on my jacket zipper. because i found it. because my zipper pull broke away. because i said it's celtic, but i just said that, idle know, it's not christian, it's pagan. it goes way back in all directions. it's the sign of life. it's sad that everything today tends to devolve into monotheism and nationalism. this cross is the meeting of heaven and earth, the axis of life, that all. i pray to this meeting for mister's salvation. i pray to earth and sky, i pray for life.