mister has trouble in his pancreas. there's a mass that can't be removed. in 3-5 days we'll get the results of the biopsy, but he probably doesn't have long to live. i cry to write that. i always want to think he just has troubles and then he recovers. i'm glad i got to see him awake. and to meet the doc and learn more. it's coming to the time when i'll have to say goodbye to him, and i don't know how. how can i say goodbye to my best friend.