i'm not always comparing myself, today i didn't once. when i feel good about myself, when i'm in the flow, i see my natural way is confidence, and not fear or jealousy. it's when i get tired or hungry or i read too much news. i think we have to trust that the world will go as it must. there is so much change it'll make your head spin. it is so easy to get overwhelmed and lose your balance. overwhelmed is normal. yet with all the same stuff going on there's a strange magic and a peace in the heart. and outside, especially when the dandelions pop and the little violets and you see how the dogs roll and the waves roll, your heart rolls with it too, you sigh, smile, your heart does a small leap.

and mister's getting a wagon, and i didn't have to make the decision, for it was a collaboration, and so we're getting a dutch wagon, a doggyride, and i'm excited, for we'll be able to go all the places we want to go, and mister will ride in style and comfort, and i'll be proud and happy to push or pull my grand little boy.