my shame looks better in camera.

i am precipitating a crisis that has long precipitated in me. i am going to get, i think, a herman miller lounge chair that may be one year older than me, place it in this room, and wait for the magic. no, i am going to nudge myself in my little universe to act, to alchemise if that's a word, this space of happenstance and often failed hope. with the style and grace of herman miller so be it.