i'm having grave trouble sleeping and i don't know why i don't get a plant-based sleeping draught. i have a very circumscribed, unnatural life i know but i have to live with it. i read til i'm falling asleep in the words and directly i lay my head i think of some humiliation or other and i bolt back to the book, and then i abandon it because it truly is going nowhere.

but at least i'm no longer passing out and waking hungover.