i have finely found a way to live, in the presence of the lord.
just kidding,
but i did put on my druid cross today
and a yellow beaded necklace for copp the birders admired.
maybe it's like tms, the lord
you want to believe
and not really try
so as not to be disillusioned.
lord grant me the placebo
to make me believe
that new neuronal connections
can redeem us.

of course we know from life
that love
can die,
and freedom be crushed,
yet somehow
survive.