i was writing this in response to my friend ana, but i just wanted to post it— i get more distracted and anxious when i don't read, so i keep reading, as i've done to quell anxiety since i was little. i'm thankful i no longer numb myself with alcohol. i refill my phone at a palestinian store, and my friend there always cheers me up. i think he sees the long view. he sees israel failing, and palestine eventually free. also i'm watching watermelon pictures. the encampments is streaming, though the encampments have been broken up. maybe we have global virtual encampments. we can't stop it, but i agree with my friend, the zionist project has been revealed, and it's gone too far. the world is turning against israel. it's collapsing.