i had an uncle who went to live on a kibbutz. i didn't know much about it then, and now the uncle's dead i'd like to talk about it. we probably couldn't talk now any more than then. if my uncle was alive he'd probably be the same but older. i didn't know much but i knew israel was evil. uncle said it's complicated, you wouldn't understand, you'd have to live there. i'd like to tell him i understand, and i wouldn't want to live there.