i didn't sleep well because of the second helping of baked zitti and sadness about mom. i don't know that mom is sad. there is some drama but it's just age and mom knows they need some help now. we all need help. what i like about the paramitas is the idea of crossing over to sanity, not some other place but here, crossing within, from insanity, which is the system we live in, to sanity, which is what gets excluded when we live according to the insane system. and ultimately we have to cross over to the spirit world, without the burden we carry in this one.