Monday, April 8, 2019




we see mary and mariella in front of uc press and lulu naturally goes bonkers. i'm surprised how many people don't mind and even seem kind of giddily honored to be jumped. then we saw jamie kalven by the invisible institute. he probably didn't recognize me without my hair, he probably wouldn't even recognize me anyway, we don't even know each other, we just kind of look alike, when i have hair, but i said, hi how are you thanks for your good work, and he sort of bowed silently, and then we went over to our secret invisible farm, which is not secret nor farm but some kind of school, was this the orthogenic school?
(i just looked it up, it is bruno bettleheim's old haunt! in fact it does seem haunted, not scary, but you feel something, bettlehein was a powerful creep, an abusive bastard, i remember reading about the refrigerator mothers and about one kid who killed himself so he wouldn't have to face the monster again. and on wikipedia i just read about a girl he fondled her breasts after beating her. wow, those poor kids!) but now it's just the softly decaying abandoned architecture of the past, benign that way, like any site that people forget. it hides in the midst of more recent buildings, decrepitly charming, and where we can be invisible, in our own fantasy, with little lulu, drifting in place with lulu.

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