i feel a little scared of the outside. i've been in here safe and warm, and though i want to return to my dogs, and i want to be in the picture making pictures, i've been in a safe warm floating world up here, taken care of and caring of my feet. 
we have to balance between our inside and the world. the world got smaller, the world got filled with things, but not as small as we are. the world is infinite. we need, for our vitality, to remember this. the world is infinite, we are particles of infinity, looking through the buildings and the trees, composing songs and pictures of the journey. i thought my feet stopped me, but i see nothing stopped, i was looking out the window and looking in the world. the world was still looking into me. 
a film about hilma af klint said we live in a polarized world. we can't see it any other way, but behind all this, everything is interlinked, all things correspond, invisibly in the visible world, matter developing from spirit.
i want to enter the outside again tomorrow, and i'm so thankful i don't have to go to a cubicle in a room in an office in a tower, say, i simply have to get my dogs and walk in the side walks and green spaces between buildings and make pictures and lightly test my spring feet.
the world continues, as we can see. 

i'm listening to julia kent as i write this.