i was thinking and feeling i don't think too good and remembering my prof. wondering who was writing and where that person was kind of anticipated this and i didn't become a better writer or clearer just more adamant and cussed and unpublished. lichtenberg got published but all of that is not remembered or saved. what is remembered is his waste books he never published. this is my waste book. thanks to my professor whose name i forgot. 

i started to say something about nature being what lay under human nature. nature overlaid. laden. also what grows through the cracks of human nature when humans can't see the way of nature. human nature is the anti-nature surging unconsciously toward transmutation.