mister and carl. the two seem rather melancholic. mister has that look sometimes when he seems kind of bored but he's only quiet. i used to be quiet like that all the time. but me i was sad. i think carl is sad when he stands by the lake and he wants to swim but he feels shy because of his condition. i don't know if he feels vulnerable in general or his energy is sapped by meds, and since he moved here from california he's almost stopped having seizures but when they reduced the dose he had one. it must be a bummer. i remember my niece having them and being misdiagnosed and put on the wrong meds for ten years until they discovered it was lupus. who knows right? i talked to a new doctor at a party and he said we still know so little and so much is a mystery. i wanted to lift carl in the water and hold him, but he's a little heavier than mister and i worried about my groin, which i think was pulled by that last second fall off the diving stone.
i don't know what carl and mister feel about each other. they aren't that demonstrative, but some dogs act casual when they really feel comfortable.

 what can you do. hug the boys.