i think about him trying to keep up and i get so sad feeling his eyes on me. i think about looking back and him not being there.

i think how i'll miss his dawdling. how i'll miss his easy relating to people. is it bad to miss a person who is still here? i fear i won't be able to contain all my missing when he's gone. i'll never be able to miss him enough. so i have to start now missing him when he slows down, long before he goes.