it's more allowance not will if i can allow and not construct, i think about the two black dressed japanese nuns one afraid the other not yet both smiling and laughing alike and mister excited two-stepping one to the other the afraid dancing back, mister smiling forth, and all waving and parting smiling i thought how fear can be open and adaptive not closed and manipulated by advertisers and governments and po-po's. fear can be allowance and smiles opening and fluttering butterfly mothearts.