at home with o. and r.

 What is culture? Giving to the living! They may steal it, but country is always there! The dreamtime is still evolving. The dreamtime is all time. 

Cushioner says the regime is committed to achieving the impossible, the Master Plan of Genocide.

The destroyer has a master plan. The master plan is, yet again, catastrophic success, i.e. genocide.

 
 

Electronic Intifada, Now!

 

 It's day 839 of the U.S. Israel genocide in Gaza. I'm listening to Death, Reverb and Decay by Christine Vantzou, John Also Bennett, and Oliver Coates, and watching the Electronic Intifada. Now there are three concrete chunks of Obamaspeak waiting to rise up to his conning tower.

 

The fiction was useful.

it's how we work!

 Carney’s speech is worth reading for its confessions. For its confession that liberal centrism is an ideology of cynical self-interest, that its symbols are fake, its rhetoric designed to deceive. For its admission that the rules-based order is a lie, that western neoliberal governance is a hideous, hypocritical creation.

Nate Bear

 

I remember when this was a garden, and then it was just trees laying down dead, and then they hauled all the dead trees and dirt and roots away, and then it was a giant pit, and then a giant construction, but it all looked small from above. I remember the buffalo trucks, and the prairie concrete, and now they're hauling the dirt from elsewhere away again to make a memorial pond for the oligarch's mom. 

 and yet, no matter what they do, it's still evolving.

 It'll continue though it's a dead end. It's calculated with bad math.

the board of peace is the board of genocide. i don't know what to think. just going through the motions. retire. i'd like to retire, but what then? what's left. what a world.

 

 there's nothing wrong with asking questions, looking for reasons, you can ask me anything, anytime, i'm always here, it's like a meditation. 

it may be the reason is to get rid of it.

 

there may be a reason but no other reason like the one you look for but you keep looking for the reason and that's the reason you keep looking.

 of course i forgot what i dreamt. i woke and read big kiss, bye-bye and thought about my old apartment and how i lived there and now i live here, and i can still see myself there but i can't quite imagine it, because i live here now. i just wanted to write this before i hop up to the 17th floor and look down on the construction in the former park, i don't know why. in fact i suppose there are many things that i've done or that happened i don't know why, but there's a story in there, like the purr of a cat if you touch it the right way. if there's a purr there's a story as well and there is no wrong way i tell myself just tell it.

The Quickening is the time when the colonial-capitalist system collapses. Time of fire and water, anger and grief. Time to understand who we are and why we're here. Time to tell our stories, until we all feel. The water, the ancestors, the plants and animals, are all there waiting for us. Let them see who you are.

 When they started they were hanging 3 panels a day. Today they're still trying to finish one. I think there's trouble with the installation. These 3 panels have been sitting there for a week. One, the one that was lifted up today, was lifted up a week ago, and brought back down. I know it's a huge task to hang 39 panels weighing 5.5 and 10 tons each to a building in the freezing cold and the wind, but I also wonder if the whole neoliberal project is cursed.

 Talk about absurd, I was up there a hella long time waiting for the 5.5 ton next puzzle piece to rise up, and then I nearly missed it, and why, why, what am I doing, what am I doing here, etc. That's the question for today. I was sitting in the window and the sun was heating up the afro of Nina Simone on my t-shirt. I was thinking at least I'm getting some vitamin D, even through Nina's fro. But seriously, that conning tower with that specious megaton speech is the height of absurdity, I'm here to tell y'all.

In this sense he was a wanderer, though I couldn't say whether this was the mistake that the captain made, always wondering where he was.

Daniele Del Giudice, A Fictional Inquiry

 

 In this day and age, what does 99 years even mean. I mean, it's abzurd. 

 But for him everything had to be about knowing how to to live: too basically, too authentically, and too directly for him to also write. 

(Daniele Del Giudice, A Fictional Inquiry).

*also was in italics but i don't like italics much.

*The Obamachron lease is up in 99 years, at which time it could return to being a park, or the lease could be renewed for 99 years.

 the writer was a character searching for the writer who wrote him and stopped writing. that was the book i'm reading. we woke to snow. the snow stopped snowing. 

today and yesterday we had 15 minute visits with trudy. she had just eaten, and she just wanted to sleep. she said something-hair, and touched r.'s head, like touching a buddha. now she can rest. and now olive sleeps by my pillow and i read a fictional inquiry and in 48 minutes we zoom the circle of life. oh i read lydia davis why i write yesterday. r. is surprised how i go direct from book to book like crossing a stream stone by stone trying to keep my balance and not fall in.

the whole boondoggle is bound to fail.

 

 in the end you're totally dependent again. 

 I want to maintain a certain inertia, with small urges that are indispensable and sufficient. 

Daniele Del Giudice, A Fictional Inquiry

 In this dystopia, Americans are never given the option to vote for a president who won’t bomb foreign countries in wars of aggression. But they do have the option to gamble on when those bombs will be dropped.

Caitlin Johnstone

 

Olive slept somewhere else and came in and lay on my chest at 3:33 am. Around 6:00 she lay on my hip. At 6:30something I wash her bowls, make coffee, and stretch my bones. At 7:37 Olive sleeps. I take a picture as the light increases and read A Fictional Inquiry.

stop normalizing genocide.

 

 obama's uses law to take what he wants. his land grab is costing hundreds of millions, maybe a billion, yet he disdains to fix the clarence darrow bridge in the park. clarence darrow was a different kind of lawyer. his bridge is falling down, and obama don't mind.