we were playing leaf ball right next to where a series of explosions happened minutes later. i feel lucky, or maybe it was charlie. 

i was so lucky to have you. 

i'm going to be going back in memory and pictures now because you're not here. i'm going to be getting pictures and updates about your life going forward. i'm talking to you as if you could read. you did read me. you knew my heart and soul. i think that's real. we must be kindred souls, still together that way, while you are not here, and i miss you acutely.

i just read you went running this morning. i'm so happy for you while i'm crying. 

in spirit, you will always be my dog. bless you, charlie.