awareness is crucial but what if someone is encroaching on your awareness so heavily they capture your awareness. you can still cogitate on the dilemma and strive with awareness to free yourself. i woke up thinking of psycho cop. she may have encroached on my dreams. when i ride by her house i wonder what psycho cop is doing now. is she still a cop, still psycho? maybe she's nice now, maybe she's off the force. maybe the badge entitled her psychotic behavior. the last i saw her was at the estate sale of the murder suicide of the psychologist couple. she was glaring across the wisteria hedge and spraying the hornets nest with her hose. a kid at the sale got stung and ran screaming. for months psycho cop harassed and threatened me and other people in the park while walking our dogs. it was hell, and i obsessed on her menace and the way to get free. i talked to a neighbor and she talked to the superintendent and then psycho cop was no longer in the park. i know my awareness did that. but she may still pop up in my dream life. that's ok, as long as she's off the beat. still we are over-policed, and there are other psychotic officers, so maybe my antennae just picked up on something in the jangled air of obamaland.

i buzzed my head face and neck yesterday. it's cold and dark today. we're going to bring out the pink fleece blankie. awareness and a good nest for winter.