a skullcap for me found on the and a beanie for mister. found yesterday and today. a little protection for the head, yet, relapse anxiety. the anxiety comes and brings the relapse. relapse childhood. in the head, hood, always there. i read little panic, ha, does that bring it on? a little panic goes a long long way. i bring it on, i put it on, my own and mister's head, too? relapse. childhood. trouble being there. trouble being anywhere. 

 the air in my ears is tight as a drum.