some people say it is not worse now and it has always been this way, like that makes it ok, and it seems like that stops them from seeing how bad it is, or doing anything about it, same as it ever was is resignation, is exhaust, and even if it was true, it makes me sad that makes them feel better, like it will always be true, it's like reality is malleable enough that we can tell ourselves any lie to make it feel better. like we've internalized our politicians' empty words and platitudes. well it is not the same, and it's a whole hell of a lot worse, and it has never been this way, it is a continuum yet now is not then, and if we keep trying to make it better by saying humans have always been mean and nasty and greedy and bloody minded and depraved we deserve our well earned extinction. how can any sane body say this is just ebb and flow, that you got to look at the long haul. i'm looking at the long haul, baby, and it looks like murder, and it looks like war, and it looks like suicide, and if it's always been this way it's been a long time coming. oh i just got that feeling again. it has happened before, and i've said these things, repeating something before my time, yet i also know it never happened quite this way. we have not been here before.