it comes back, but it comes back weirder. it's normal. it is. not what is remembered, but what remembers.
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in reality, life is a movement, materiality is the inverse movement, and each of these two movements is simple, the matter which forms a world being an undivided flux, and undivided also the life that runs through it, cutting out in it living beings all along its track. 

-h.bergson