sweet baby james turns two. he likes gardening, cooking, drumming, and baseball. he's a sensitive and intelligent boy and i can't help but wonder what this old world will be like when he's 57 and we're long gone. silly, somber me, i can't help myself thinking, even as my memory is going and i live day to day, i wonder about his time, the times coming, and i feel so bad at what we are leaving him. but today was a sweet celebration. we all were there for him. he has a family, and like us, he'll do the best he can in a fractured world not of his making. i love you my grand boy, you joy, you wonder, you light in the old ones eyes.