i think about these things. not like krishnamurti mind you, but like doug. i read a lot on race, my mind races, i watch a lot of street tv, i seen it in the movies and all. 
i try to learn and develop my stunted instinct in this civilized savage culture. can you develop a stunted instinct? perhaps in a stunted fashion, but yes, i'd say. 
i can only imagine what this place would be like if i was brown or black or any other color than livid white. yet i can imagine, because however i appear, i appear to be a miniscule, and diminishing, minority.