Have to come immediately here like that guy elmer fudd who ran to the top of the nearest mountain to scream in rage and frustration and just breathe ah let it go.
A stupid motherfucker cop one of chiraq's infamous motherfuckers just barked at me like a junkyard dog Put your dog on a leash. i slowly slowly complied starring holes in his stupid head saying sotto voce so the brainstem wouldnt understand, Ok, ok stupid motherfucker Don't Shoot! i'm complying asshole Yes Sir You the Boss Man, you the Po-lice, you a Bad motherfucker.

That's how the police state works. One motherfucker gets in your head like poison and they think you'll be scared and comply and be a miserable wretched child of the police state. But i say fuck you motherfuckers. I took the leash off immediately before he even left. Then i realized i lost my camera i was so upset, as i use Copp's leash as a camera leash and head to retrieve it from the juneberry tree but i will be defiant of stupid motherfucking capricious arbitrary police state motherfuckers until i fucking die. ah, that's better. 

Before that when another set of texts trailed off without response i was thinking, I say too much, I say too little, I say the wrong thing, I shut the fuck up, i sit in silence i go crazy i seek the only refuge outside of a dog, the blog. 

plus the weather, i was checking in with my good friend at open produce who said he also checks in with customers when there is something in the air a seismic shift in the mood, in the hood in the weather in the war etc, and thank goodness we found osmosis, we feel the same things, the things most people are feeling but don't locate themselves within or within themselves so we agreed it is all important in the war culture in the planet war in the po-lice state in the careening weather to ask do you hear what i hear, do you see what i see, do you feel what i feel?

then i was mad at copp for dawdling at the alley when a car was coming and not jumping to attention at my command so that's what the police state does too, it makes us hard, it makes us police, god damn them, and i realized we have to be hard for freedom and fluid at the same time. all this come fro the riptide and the impending storm, even that motherfucker cop, may have been influenced by the motherfucker barometer. i'm not counting how many times i used motherfucker in this entry, does google track that stat, opps there's one more. and i 'pologized to copp and will not let the motherfucker's make my day i promise copp.

Radical Peace, with Hilde.