i am not at peace with myself; i am not always "something", and if i am "something" for once, i pay for it by "being nothing" for months at a time. of course my ability to judge people and my judgement of the world in general suffer if i don't pull myself together in time; a large part of this desolate view of the world comes from this distorted judgement; it could surely be straightened out mechanically, but only for one futile moment.

franz kafka