what was i gonna say. i should have written it down. does it matter, no, it's of no consequence. i forgot it hours ago. i'm reading gloria but not so coherently. i keep thinking of other things. like one day i may not be able to focus enough to read, though now i forget what i read directly upon finishing, unless it becomes part of my unconscious, which is a theory. maybe i'm not that into fiction these days. i know it depends. i want to read somebody's thoughts, and i keep looking. i want to read about reality, but i don't know what it is until i find it. then i try to keep it in mind like a dream.