juju did good today. he ate almost two whole cans before sunset. otherwise he slept peacefully. it feels like a bardo with r. gone, like we're waiting for something to happen, but it's happening. we're waiting but not waiting for r. to return. we know she's away and she'll be coming back, and i know when but i can't tell them. the cats are different with her not here. it takes some getting used to, and then it changes again. oh i hear kes, i'll see if i can see.