i did some body movement today with r. i think i can make my skeleton more supple. i get where i'm riding in my head estranged and my core protests, get back! 

i think of mister with his stiff spine. i know how tired he got, and i got scared thinking about what his pain meant and how he might have to leave his body one day, and then the day came. 

i think though of the days we felt good, and i sang songs to him and we ran and danced and swam.