my mind keeps shifting. someone is dying tonight and i cried when i heard, and then my mind shifted again. but i'm still thinking about her. i guess there are layers. my mind takes refuge in layers. it stuns me how tenuous life is. there must be a spirit life. i've felt that i'm a temporary home in a temporary world for a spirit that may travel beyond this life as it has this body even in this life. there must be more to this than degradation destruction and death. this life must be a crush that releases the spirit from the body's gravity.